Thursday, December 08, 2005

"Use what we have and then no more"

Gos showed me something at church last night that I didn't really want to hear... but it makes a ton of sense now that I processed it all. The evangelist was talking about how he had 7 heart attacks at once and because of this he qualified for full disability payments from the government. He said that he didn't accept these payments because with a healing ministry he didn't feel right receiving disablity from the gov't when he was being used to heal others..... then later in the evening they were praying for Jay and one of the things they prayed for him was breaking the financial strong hold on our family. (Which is awesome... cause we make a pretty good salary here, but for some reason we never have enough money to pay our bills). Well anyway later Jay and I were talking about church and I started thinking about getting government aid. (our kids are on state medicade and we get WIC) I felt like God was asking me if we are getting this aid because we need it or do we need it because we are getting it. At first it didn't make sense, but after I prayed about it I realized that by being on medicade and WIC we are keeping a welfare spirit over our house (not trying to sound strange or super hyper spiritual) but God showed me that by depending on the aid from the government we are basically keeping God from blessing us financially. I can see now how just walking into the DHS office to get our WIC checks is allowing this welfare mentality to have a place in our lives. Sorry if my ramblings don't make sense... it makes sense to me, but sometimes is hard to convey on the internet. Anyway I was praying about what we should do and I felt like God was saying to use what we have and then no more. So we are going to use the WIC checks that we have right now (I just got them Tuesday) and keep the kids on Medicade until it expires (in April) but we aren't going to get any more WIC checks after we use these up and I will get the kids lined up to be on our insurance before April. Right now we can't afford the extra $200 it will cost each month to put them on our insurance, but I'm trusting God that it will work out and excited to experience our financial break through.

3 comments:

antho said...

Well, since we just talked about all this... :) I just wanted to say how much I enjoyed our conversation today, how much of a blessing you are to me. I feel like in the past year we've really deepened our friendships - and our discussion and I am very thankful for it. I feel closer to you than I ever have and I am truly thankful for it. Thanks for being so open and honest with me and expecting it in return. I really appreciate that I can tell you anything and you are very real with me - and vice versa.
About your post - I really get what you are saying and it hits close to home. Rob and I will definitely pray about it. Talk to you soon. -a

In His Steps said...

I understand what you are saying Lori. We want to fully trust and depend on the Lord but it is sometimes hard to surrender all.
I was just talking to another Christian at work the other day about tithing. In Canada, there has been talk about taking the church's charitable status away. I wonder how many will still tithe as much as they do when they don't receive a tax receipt for it? I would like to think that I would still surrender and give God back His money and trust that He will supply all of my needs, but will pride prevent me from giving fully? I pray not.

antho said...

Ok, ummm... Can I comment??? Um, like, er, you haven't posted in a *really* long time and some of us who are stalking you are getting kind of bored... Could you find something to blog about and share it with the rest of us? Even if it's something dull like discussing the intricacies of underwater basket weaving or social dysfunction of state employees at the department of motor vehicles. At this point, anything would be better than nothing. Your killing us here!